There is a certain kind of disheartening feeling that comes with his suicide. I wish I could tell him this:

my hero, my imaginary audience, my inspiration…I hope you are at rest. I wish I could have told you how much you meant to me. It made me so hopeful that you existed and that you were able to find success.

I’m still contemplating style.com’s words by Tim Blank’s “…He was also an arch romantic with a pessimistic streak. It produced some of the most beautiful, shocking images in the history of fashion, but it’s a state of mind that can lead to endless disappointments”